Thursday, December 29, 2011

Surrender To Me...

"I'll be your Love...your Pain...your Vain.
I'll shed your Tears..shield your Fears.And when Shadow looming...I'll come Running.To kiss away your Misery...to feed you Honey.For I am...your Joy...your Melancholy"





I love you today...and tomorrow...
Again and once more.
For you are my blood, food for my Heart...
Root of my Smiles,liquid for my Cry.

Be my Angel...
White wings of Light,..And far we'll hide.
Breaking all rules, 
Making love behind clouds...
...Gasping silently...
Two different Entity...
...One illusive destiny"

 


When tears of glass...
Shattered past midnight..,
Like rain on cold window...When your mind hollow,
Your thoughts invaded,..eases in your dreams...
Faint sound of screams,
Unheard...but deep,..
As you sigh...in your sleep.

Be my shadow...dark and fearless,
Following me everywhere...I don't care..,
I want nothing less...
Your stare...under the Moonlight glare...
Making me shiver...driving me deeper,
Into...my oblivion.




Scar me with your Love...deep and forever,
Kisses I can't forgive...
...Touches I can't let go..,
Staining my passion,
Bleeds through...my existence,


Come to me...be mine,
Our skin...glistening behind darkness..,
Rays of sinful passion...
...Sshh....
Whispers of Stars...
When our minds drowned...
Two Souls entwined..,
Aligned in the sky...And we'll become...
One..........




I love you...forever and again..,
I've always do...
If only...you knew.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

"Letter To God"


Dear God....
I am one of Your lost Soul...do You remember..?,
I was born...from intimacy of two lovers,
My father...and mother...
Without any doubt,will love them forever.

But do you know me...dear God?,
My existence...parallel with lonely Heart...
Always searching,yet I don't know what,
Always wondering...why my life so hard.
Oh...my beloved God...,

I've promised to stay faithful to You,
Although most of my life...I don't know what to do,
Along my path...You left countless clues,
But often without Light...often in dark hues.

I kneel down...not too often,
Yet never once,I'm lacking of devotion,
Though my mind...in commotion,
I hang on to You...my commitment.

Can You hear me God...?

I have questions to ask,
I know this Life won't last...,
But please hear me...You must,
Sometimes...the pain...too harsh.

I surrender to You...

.....My Divine,
Trying to find Light between the lines,
My soles bleeding from thorny vines...,
Stepping on destiny...I called mine.

Ohh...can you feel me,Lover All Mighty?..
This tiny shoulders too fragile for me,
Burden I carry...too heavy...,
My strength...almost empty.

I beat my chest a hundred times more,
Wanting to understand what I'm here for...,
Maybe I don't want to know what's in store,
But at least...
Hold my hand...and lead me to Your door.

Kiss me my kindly God...

Kiss my tears away...,
I wished I don't have to stay...,
I wished...I could let my Faith goes astray..,
I wished...I could sleep longer...today.

But You don't let me...,

So I continue walking with barren feet,
On Your sand dunn made of heat..,
Barely anything for my Soul to feed,
Perhaps...I haven't yet pay my deeds.

Mercy me...I am ungrateful,
My Heart so careless...hardly careful,
If I ever sounded...so cruel...,
I promise you God...

Regardless....

How painful this Life should be...
I will forever......T H A N K F U L....

Sunday, January 16, 2011

"Love Letter"

 To My Lover...

Forgive me for writing this..I could have just simply say things in my mind. But each time I see you smile..all words frozen in time,..speechless with thoughts lingering inside.

Do you not agree...many things better in writing? Expression more alive in words..?My emotions sometimes burst into thousands particles..unexplained..unresolved..I am often in trance upon staring into your eyes..my apology,I am just being silly.




Many times I just want to hold you tight. To have you in my arms. To feel the warmth of your skin..to feel your heart beating next to mine. I know my tears will flow..I know I can't say any word..I know my heart will be misty.


But honey..that's all I want to feel...that you wanting me in your arms too, wanting to love me,..the way I love you. What a treasure I have found..buried under the rubles of past..and our destiny collides. When living..I think not worth trying. When I think..I'll just surrender to fate...but you hold my hand..gently lifting me..to walk next to you.


I am breathing your life...my heart pumping your love blood. I am weak whenever you say goodbye..and bloom again when you say hi. How could I live without you? If each breath belongs to you..If each memory made beautiful by you?..And I don't want any other way..This is how my life should be...you my love...next to me.



When I look out the window...crescent Moon so lonely. Not a single star..not even cloud wrapping her gently. Such a beautiful sight..with hollow meaning. Just like me, without you honey.


I want so much to touch your skin...stroking your hair gently. To close my eyes..mapping your face with my fingers. To feel how beautiful you are...not by looking...just imagining....

Oh honey...sometimes I am at lost. So intoxicating is our love..beauty with piercing pain of missing you so much. Like a thorn embedded in my heart...no bleeding blood, but tears always near..

If only I could just grab and hold you tight...never want to let go. Sometimes wanting you to melt with me, so I don't have to long for you. So you'll always near and each movement will be with each other. So greedy this heart...desire you only for myself. Desire you to never leave my side...so you'll keep me alive...

Forgive me my love...this is...if I could call it a confession. My heart so silly...so weak...so vulnerable me. I cannot contain what I feel inside, nor can I share my feeling with other than you. I am transcended beyond my reality...We are like mystical being, exploring everything...time seems not a matter...no one else matter...so crazy...so full of desire...

My humble thank you...

.................for loving me so dearly..